a brand new one??

I had fun last night. in fact, we both had fun. she was a good friend. she was willing to accompany me during my hard times. to make it even better, the movie that we watched was also good. for me she was special because she was a girl who have free will. a girl with a high degree of indepedence. a girl who was not easy to approach, but once u know her, she was a pleasing character. she was also never think much of spending her money for a friend, and a family girl (that means a girl that loves and appreciate her family)


knowing all this, it reminds me that she is totally different than HER. its true that i have not known many girls personally over these years due to my loyalty towards HER (by the way, being loyal is suck and only a stupid would do it.that is what i learn from my failed relationship). but i can judge based on what i have experience. she is a complete opposite of HER. true, that many people prefer to think sceptically towards her. but for me, as long as u dont know the person well, u have no right to speak about her flaws and weaknessess. after all, we are just human, a creature full of flaws and mistakes.


as for me, i personally like her and i like to be beside her. step by step i start learning about her. she doesnt spend a lot on fashion but on food (that's weird for a girl..haha), she loves animals and pets. she likes spicy food, but not excessively. she loves watching movies in the cinema obsessively =P. i am hopimg that i can give her the disposable camera that she shown me yesterday for her birthday present. i am certain that will be a shock to her. but i am also concern about our status.we are good friends. good friends dont fall to each other. that is the strict rule. i am also aware that she is not mine to hold.and i am way~ way~ out of her league. so, as things stand, i would like us to stay this way. not that i dont want to love her, just that i dont want to lose a good friend like her. who always by my side when i need her.

sad,sad love story

              i believe in romance. i believe in one true love. i believe in soulmates. sometimes we make mistakes. we all do. but nothing is beyond repair. i met my soulmate when i was just 18. it was my first love. such a young and immature age to fall in love. i overcome any obstacles that came through and proceed because the feeling was just so good and only a moron would deny the chance to fall in love. it was after that, that i though i just wanted to love 1 person in my life. forever and always the same person. i have love her since the first time i hold her had and told her my feelings. i have love her immensely and hold on to this relationship for the past 4 years. i have love her even when i hate her. i dont know what happen to her now. but as far as i know, when someone loves u more than his own life, u should never wasted it.

this was the message that i sent to HER last night. i know i shouldnt be sending HER anything. nonetheless, i was still hoping that SHE would reply with feelings. it still hard to notice the the one u love have changed tremendously. how could someone that loves u so much can forget u in just a blink of an eye??..i dont know. seriously, i dont have any clue. the matter of heart is in Allah's will and power. anyway, there had been not even a single letter reply from HER. so, u can say that all my effort and heart pouring words were left in vain..THE SAD SAD LOVE STORY 0F MINE

F0r Eri 0nly!!

hi there..
this post is specially replied to my beloved girlfriend due to what i had promised her last night..the reality is, i really am not in the mood of blogging at the moment due to abundance of work at my disposal including my fyp proposal and the always irritating plant design 2..

here is my draft or plan to capture her heart again

• i will force myself for a cardiovascular exercise every weekdays
• i will reduce the rice intake in my weekly food consumption
• i will do at least 30 times sit ups n 30 dumbbell-lifting everyday before sleep
• i will have milk more often to fill my stomach when im hungry especially at night
• i will find myself some time to play badminton or futsal at least once a week
• i will try to replace dinner with light meal (optional) 

due to a variety of delicious and tasty food available in our culture, i find it hard to avoid them..nonetheless, no success without sacrifice and i think i must try because discipline is the most important thing in achieving  a goal or target